this is a now page; think of it as a "what I've been up to lately."
this page last updated: 2024.11.15
as you can see, I’m about 3/4 the way through my first superthicc journal, which I’ve been gluing all sorts of stuff into, such as: sticker packaging, receipts, fortunes from fortune cookies, bits of packaging that I like from various things (pens, converters, ink boxes, etc). It’s going really well, even if I’ve fallen out of habit very recently. (been doing a lot of thinking and not enough writing!) lucidiot has been helping me stay on track and keeping me honest on that front. x3 I need to try and remember that when many thought head full that journaling is the answer!
I’m about 3/4 of the way through this cycle of therapy; I have about 4 more sessions left as of writing this. Things are going really well; I really like my therapist, and we’re doing really good work together. She’s helped me to get back on track so that I’m taking better care of myself, and we’ve even worked on how to move past some of my old trauma, so that’s got me feeling pretty good!
the converters for the broken jinhao pens do not fit my platinum little meteors so now I have three converters that don’t fit any of my pens. (the green jinhao has lasted so far, but if it’s anything like the other two it is only a matter of time)
so I had to order replacement converters for two of my platinum little meteor fountain pens because I decided I don’t like the sliding mechanism on the cheapest available converter; it’s a little too difficult to operate with my arthritic hands…
after a long stint of nothing really grabbing my attention, I began a new world on minecraft and have been playing that pretty religiously these past two weeks, to the point where I’ve been kind of ignoring friends…which I am not proud of.
let’s face it: this year’s election has left a lot of us feeling pretty exhausted, exasperated, depressed, etc. the world is a fuck and I’m just trying to make it from day to day at this point and do my best to care for the people around me. and right now, that means focusing more on my mental health so that I can be there for the homies. there’s a reason on airlines they tell you to secure your own oxygen mask before assisting other passengers - you’re no good to anyone passed out and unable to help. so even when it feels selfish (bc trauma, ofc!), I gotta do my best to take care of myself so I can support the people in my life I care about.
please take care of and be kind to each other right now. be the good you wanna see in the world. we won’t get out of this without sticking together and helping each other.