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this page last updated: 2025.02.02

journaling

finished my first ever superthicc journal! so I get to begin the new year with a new journal! I’m excited to fill it with many more memories and entries.

art

trying to get back into doing more art in 2025! I’ve ordered some sketch pads and am going to try to challenge myself to spend some time drawing every day to try to get back into the habit. hopefully, I’ll have some more doodles & maybe even watercolors? for my rkgk page soon~!

fountain pens

been considering dropping a few more dollars on some more Jinhao pens, despite two of mine breaking… they’re so cheap and I find them very comfortable to use, even if the resin/acetate (whatever it is they’re made of) is so cheap/brittle. maybe this time I’ll try a slightly more expensive model of theirs with a similar body style, because they’re just so comfortable for my smol hands.

SOFA

recently, while reading through ~dozens’ website, I happened upon their SOFA club page, and it’s caused a paradigm shift for me. for a long time, I have been plagued by feelings of inadequacy because it seems like every time I start something, I can’t motivate myself to finish it. Usually this is because I don’t actually enjoy the thing, but I’ve been trying to make myself stick with things out of some kind of…obligation, I guess? I worried for a while that I was too flighty or incapable of seeing things through to the end. I’ve never been good with schedules or deadlines, and I guess some part of me felt the need to prove to myself that I could do it, but the end result has just been…despair. life is too short to get bogged down by things you ended up not liking and don’t want to waste time on, so reading over this page allowed me to forgive myself and move on from the things I decided I’d rather not spend time on. I think I may be in a transitional phase in my life in that my tastes seem to be changing somewhat? I’m curious to see what new things this year will bring!

living for myself

this sounds kind of…melodramatic, ig? but my most recent stint in therapy has given me permission to stop spreading myself so thin and try to focus more on myself and what I want to do. for too long, I’ve been listlessly floating through life doing whatever was asked of me just to have something to do, but now I feel more alive than ever, and have a course of action I wish to take, so that sort of existence is no longer serving me. I’m excited about my future, and I can’t wait to see what 2025 has in store for me! I hope to be doing more art, more journaling, getting into trackmaking, covering more songs, and working through some of my backlog of games, books, and anime. (and ofc, working on this site!)